Sunday, September 17, 2006
Its been quite some time since i last posted.
Been busy with church, my tuition kids, assignments,
readings, mid term test, homework ( confessions of a undergrad)
and yes, the occasional chilling out with pals and birthday celebrations!
But beyond all that, ive been thinking alot.
Reflecting on what i went through.
Reflecting on whats happening around me. Reflecting.
Yes i went through bad and hard times.
That when i look back, i just see God's grace all over my life.
I could have collapsed but He held me.
I could have given up but He gave me strength.
I could have turned bitter,
But He continued to shower me with His goodness.
And during the times, i was so preoccupied.
That i failed to realise just howclose He was to me.
Ok i could feel He was real and close.
But i failed to see that He was THAT CLOSE.
You know, when troubles come, He aint there for us.
He's there WITH us. Every moment of it. Through it all.
Tried and tested. He came true for me every time.
He came to pluck me from the pits every single time.
He did not let go of me.
Im so grateful to Abba for everything that He's done.
I realised how many a times we try to change our outerman.
That is, of cos while forgetting about our inner man.
I thought that some people were annoyed or irriated with
my words, and so.. we try to control our tongue.
We try to restain. We try to say good things.
But oh wretched man that i am,For the good that i would do, i do not,But the evil which i would not, that i do.That the more i try to lay a law on myself and follow it,
Crap, it becomes worse.
How can we extend to change our outer man while ignoring e inner man?
Changes starts from within. A change that flows outwards.
That i believe as we start beholding the finished work on the cross,
There lies our victory..
That by that simple act, we have our victory!
Which fool will fall for that?
I would. I would.
It sounds too simple to be believed but its the truth.
It cant get any further from it.
Ok i might not be all saintly and all,
But heh i belive my 100% increase is coming.
Wait!
But there cannot be 'good christians' or 'lousy christians'!!
We christians are merely people depending on our Saviour.
We are but people who make mistakes and need even more grace.
People in our lives come and go.
May those who arent supposed to stay leave.
And may those who are supposed to be here, remain.
Lord, u decide. Its outa my hands.
I realised ive been rather short fused recently.
Perhaps schools been getting to my head.
My apologies.
Its gonna get better cos Abba's taking care of it. :)
Oh wells,
Im sure my God is a good shepherd.
And a good shepherd takes good care of His sheep!
Been slightly bored with my previous blog layout..So kudos to Kev for helping me with my new blog layout.Thanks Bro!
my introspective research @ 9:00 PM
